Home Again

I’ll be headed home to Texas in just a couple more days. My flight leaves on Monday morning bright and early. I called an old friend back in Galveston and invited him to go w/me to see my brother. I’ve known him since I was 19 and life hasn’t been too easy for him lately. It might be nice to get him out of town for awhile. He went w/me once before and really enjoyed being out in the open country.

I booked my flight a little differently this time. There was this new airline called Ebonics Airways and they were so cheap I couldn’t pass it up. *giggle* I love’s me some Shirley! (I’ll be driving right thru big Beaumont too!)

Seriously though, I’m looking forward to the trip. I’ll spend a few days in Houston visiting friends and the rest w/my brother. I can tell he is looking forward to it as well. He seems very happy that we are talking so much again. I didn’t realize how much I missed him I guess.


Boy the shit is really rolling this week. I just discovered roblog‘s ex passed away this week as well. If you don’t read roblog, his ex has been battling advanced HIV infections for some time now. It looked like he was on the mend as of late. I guess things must have taken a turn for the worse. If you can, take a moment to pass on good thoughts to rob. Nothing can take away the anguish but I believe love and the human spirit can endure the pain of death.

Death, itself, has been everpresent in my own life. I lost my mother at 7, my first love at 18, my grandmother at 26, a dear friend at 30, and most recently my father at 34. These are by no means the only losses in my life but the most significant. Even as a kid I saw death differently. I wondered why people were so sad if they really believed the dead were in a better place. When my mom died, I kept asking everyone when we could go visit her. Oh don’t get me wrong, I know if I lost Bobby or Trevan I’d be a mess. I’d bawl like a baby for awhile, you betcha. But afterwoods, I’d know they were still out there. I wouldn’t see them anymore but I’d carry the knowledge of their continued existence w/me thru my own life along w/my memories of them.

And as cheesy as it sounds, this song by Celine Dion always seems to cheer me up. So, listen if you want and take a moment to reflect on all the people you’ve lost in your life. Be thankful for what they brought you in this life and that you are blessed enough to still be here.

Feeling blue, school and tagged

I’ve been pushing myself a lot this past week. So much so, I think I’ve sorta worn myself out. I’ve been feeling cranky the last couple of days. To make matters worse, I got a light case of food poisoning last night. I had some funky chinese food while on lunch from class yesterday. Last night, I was achey and feeling like shit so I went to be early. I woke up around 3:00am w/the chills and some tummy rumblings. Today, the chills are gone but the stomach is not happy. blech.

So, I’m sitting here in my towel blogging away and waiting for the Safeway delivery guy to show up. I forgot I scheduled my groceries to be delivered today. Of course, I scheduled the delivery the same time as my meeting at work. (I can be such a dunce sometimes). I called to see if he could be here early but no luck.

And speaking of class, it’s off to a great start. As expected there is a lot of reading and work I’m required to do on my own. We lost two people mid-day yesterday. No loss, as all they did was yack during class. It’s hard as hell to listen when someone is yacking incessantly in the background. I have a feeling we’ll lose a few more by next week. Yesterday was the first day we really got into the material and the instructor made a point of showing some of the negative sides of the job.

On a different note, I got tagged by roblog. He was tagged by addaboy.

The instructions are:

List ten songs that you are currently digging … it doesn’t matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they’re no good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the ten songs in your blog.

I’m supposed to tag five people afterwards. *I had to edit this post as I discovered several of my choices had already been tagged.*

Filthy Gorgeous – Scissor Sisters
Don’t Cha – Pussycat Dolls
Absolutely Not – Deborah Cox (hector remix)
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger – Daft Punk
Pappa Was A Rolling Stone – George Michael
You’ll Be Blessed – Elton John
You Make Me Sick – Pink
Got To Give It Up – Marvin Gaye
Shiny Disco Balls – Unk Author (remix)
Nookie – Limp Biscuit

*If any of these songs are on your must have list, email me*

And now I tag

die fledermause

*these were the first five on my blogroll random shuffle not already tagged today*