Confession

After the private post update, I felt it was time to add another little bit. I told a few people already but I figured I’d come clean. I saw the flight attendant this weekend. I guess he really was serious about what he said. He broke it off with the guy he was seeing. No, not for me. Lord, what a load of drama that would be. He was already unhappy but he gave it his best. I’m not spilling all his business here but I’m grateful I was able to stay out of it. It was obvious he cared for the guy. Sometimes that is not enough.

Of course, from my point of view I’m a little conflicted. I was genuinely sad for him but at the same time I was a little bit glad. I know that is a normal human emotion but it bothered me. I talked it over w/a few people and ultimately, I feel like I did right by not pushing him into this decision. Now, if things between us don’t develop into anything serious, he will have no regrets. He will have made his choices for the right reasons.

Anyway, he called and said he had a layover in SF and I jumped at the chance to see him. We spent about 16 hours together. It was nice. Yes, the sex was awesome. I know that is what you are wondering. The physical connection is very strong between us. Hell, I redlined it all the way there on my bike. hehehe. I didn’t even have my gloves off before we were going at it. Clothes flew everywhere. The rest you’ll just have to fill in on your own.

I did get a little more time to hang out with him outside the bed this time. I admire him a lot for some of the things he is struggling to overcome. The simple honesty in his statements struck very close to home for me. And while we do have similarities, we are also quite different in many ways. We have very different backgrounds but struggle to overcome some of the same demons. He is very close to his family which is almost foreign to me. I’m happy for him of course. I just can’t relate never having had that.

All in all, it was a good date. We spent the night together before he had to fly out again this morning. I probably won’t see him again for about a month. Good for a variety of reason I think. He still has a lot on his plate right now. Better he have time to deal with that w/o me distracting him.

Today was pretty lazy. I got a few chores down and now just sitting at home being lazy after a very delicious homemade dinner. How was your holiday weekend?

13 thoughts on “Confession”

  1. My weekend was work – 3 easy days and then one (of course the last one) a brutal long one where I spend 14 hours crossing the continent back and forth….can’t say that I didn’t have fun though! Had a great crew!

  2. Good for you, babe! I’ve been off in the woods, and this is the first post I’ve read on any subject, look forward to catching up on everyone’s goings on while I was off the grid.

  3. Hey Moby: I haven’t read your blog in a while, since the last posts about the flight attendant, actually. Sounds good and healthy though. You are smart not to push, it can be a wild ride being the next boyfriend in line after a break-up. I happened to come on the heels of my bf’s break up after 10 years and it took us a while to jump start our relationship with several break ups and drama, etc. We worked through it and have been together for 8 years, but I wouldn’t wish that drama on anybody!

    Take care

  4. It sounded like you had a great weekend! I think you are playing the whole thing cool, which is best. He needs time to let go and heal and you don’t need to be a stand in for that. Enjoying one another’s company from time to time is okay as long as you don’t expect too much or get too wrapped up in him.

    In time who knows what may develop!

  5. Gosh, it must be hard to be connected to someone who is so ‘geographically undesirable’. Distance alone makes things tough, but the continual travel fluctuations and trying to find time to be together has got to be very difficult.

    Glad you guys have fun when you DO get together, tho’.

  6. No need to confess anything, Moby. Glad you had a nice time with the flight attendant. I agree with everyone else…take it slow and see what becomes of it all. πŸ™‚

  7. damn – you’re as bad as me. i don’t read and we don’t chat for a week and all kinds of juicy shite happens. πŸ™‚

    I hope it goes where it should. you’re a smart man. i’ve no doubt you’ll stay true to yourself.

    let’s have lunch and get nails done saturday?

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