End Of A Chapter

TFA and I had a long talk today.1  I didn’t plan on bringing up my doubts but he could tell something was up with me.  I didn’t have the gall to lie to him so we talked it out.  Basically, I admitted how much I was hurting and my growing doubts.  He listened patiently and with just one sentence summed it all up.  "Moby, it isn’t my desire for you that is the problem, it is my inability to act on it."  There it was in one little sentence.  The whole of our problem.  I cried a little but it was good to face it. 

So as of today, TFA and I are back to being just friends.  Good friends and the possibility for more still exists just not now.  He needs to focus on bigger issues in his life right now.  I’m not as sad as I thought I’d be.  I guess deep down, I knew it was coming.  I was just fighting it. 

The rest of the conversation was the same as always.  We laughed, we flirted, we talked dirty, then we laughed some more.  In a way, I feel like we are closer than before.  Odd I know but that’s how I feel. 

  1. 2 1/2 hours to be exact. []

12 thoughts on “End Of A Chapter”

  1. Sorry about your sadness especially after the holidays. Things will work out. I’ve enjoyed reading about your adventures with TFA, and hoped things would go well. I still hope for your to find that love of your life (TFA should come to his senses). You are a hottie.

  2. I’m so sorry to hear about you guys. I was really routing for you. I just heard on the radio this morning that this is the most popular week in the year to break up. You are a fantastic guy and the right prince will come along.

  3. Aw, I’m sorry that things didn’t work out with TFA. At least you guys ended on a positive note and you’ll still be friends.

  4. And now you’ve moved into the arena of fewer expectations and less head and heart games. The pressure’s off. The friendship can now bloom and grow. It’s quite beautiful, I think…the ups and downs, the pain, the tears, the smiles and happiness. The ride all adds up to a great future….I hope. Hugs.

  5. I’m NOT sorry. It sounds to me like you too have a pretty clear channel of communication. He was able to honestly tell you that RIGHT NOW it’s not the time. He didnt say never, or we’re through, or I dont lust or love you. He was responding honestly to your own honesty.
    Metaphorically, The stream has changed course and branched in a different direction, but it doesn’t mean that it won’t still eventually lead to the sea.

    I mean…

    He can’t be TOTALLY insane, can he? πŸ™‚

  6. I’m a little sad to hear that things didn’t work out as what you hoped at the beginning, but I’m happy for you that it ended in such a positive way. Many people has nasty “brokeups”, this really showed that there IS a mature way. And you honestly won’t know what’s around the corner for you. Maybe there’s another guy, or maybe you run into him again. You just don’t know.

    Depends on how you’re feel right now, the next few days can be easy breezie or it can be a bit tough, but stay strong. You’ll be in my thoughts… well, in a non-sexual kinda way, at least for tomorrow. πŸ˜€

  7. Seems like the best thing was putting it all out there. You both got out things that were stalling the relationship. While the result is not exactly what either of you may desire, it sounds like the relationship is ultimately stronger…which I think will be better in the long term when it finally is what you bother desire.

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