Category: me

Do Over

Don’t you wish sometimes that you could just call “do over” and start a day over? Other than a very nice conversation with the flight attendant, this day fraking blows. I’ve been a little under the weather the last few days. Last night seemed to be the worst but I’m irritable today.

My text messages were down last night. Considering I send and receive about 100 text messages a day, I’m feeling very cut off. I can’t really bitch too much. One blip in 5 years of good cell service I can live with. [1]It appears to be up and working late today.

I got my estimate back from the new dentist. My invisilign braces are gonna cost me twice as much as I thought. How the frak can they justify charging me that much for some pre-molded polymer plastic?

I found out a while back there is a lien on the land my dad left to my brothers and I. I got my portion of the bill recently and I am NOT happy. We can’t finish dividing up the land according to the will until the lien is paid. I’m very unhappy w/my brothers right now.

My fucking xbox is still in repair. The automated system said it was shipped already. I called today and it was a glitch, per the rep. I wanted to “glitch” him a new one but I just hung up instead.

The financial woes above means I have to put off buying the new CBR. [2]I want the new CBR 600 from Honda in blue. I’ll probably have to wait until after the new year now to trade my current one in. Another bitch and moan session to follow…

I got censured on someone’s blog today. I guess honesty doesn’t count for dick anymore. I probably shouldn’t care but it left a very foul taste in my mouth.

The pity party is rolling here so let me think what else I can bitch about. Nothing else comes to mind so I guess I’ll just shut my pie-hole.

References

References
↑1 It appears to be up and working late today.
↑2 I want the new CBR 600 from Honda in blue.

Random Questions

I’ve gotten a slew of random questions this past week and I figured I’d share here my answers.

1) What happened to “Mr. I-know-who-you-are”?

I don’t know. He never responded to my request for a valid IP address. All talk and no action. NEXT!

2) Are the hidden posts on your blog stories or real life occurrences?

I’ve answered that before however, they are all true. Sometimes I change the names to protect the guilty though. heehee.

3) When did you know you were gay?

I knew as early as 5 that I was somehow different however, a mind that young has no frame of reference for human sexuality. I began questioning when I was 10 and then at age 12 I knew something was very different about me. It wasn’t until just after my 14th birthday I began to really admit to myself I was ‘gay’.

4) I registered as a user but I still can’t see your hidden posts.

Probably because you didn’t reply to my follow-up request to introduce yourself. Email me directly.

5) You never talk about the Bare Chest charity anymore.

I no longer volunteer for them. Call it “creative differences”.

6) I noticed your twitter updates are still functioning. Mine has stopped, help!

I switched to a javascript loader via the RSS feed. The WordPress widget no longer works after one of Twitters’s recent upgrades. Email me and I’ll send you the code to load.

7) I live in San Francisco. I have never seen you out at the bars. Where do you go out?

Uh, I don’t do the bars much unless I have friends in town. I used to go out alot when I worked for several local charities however, my priorities have shifted.

8) Have you ever met Chad Fox?

Yes, and he is a filthy scoundrel and I love him to death.

9) How did you know I worked for [removed for privacy]? Is it that easy to discover?

Uh, because I am very nosy. I monitor all incoming/outgoing traffic on my blog/domain. You visit me weekly from your work address/IP. It is not a filtered or proxy IP so it was an easy guess. And yes, it is.

10) Why are you such a slut? (from a good friend mind you after reading my last entry)

Because I can be bitch. Jealousy is so not your color! 😛

Confession

After the private post update, I felt it was time to add another little bit. I told a few people already but I figured I’d come clean. I saw the flight attendant this weekend. I guess he really was serious about what he said. He broke it off with the guy he was seeing. No, not for me. Lord, what a load of drama that would be. He was already unhappy but he gave it his best. I’m not spilling all his business here but I’m grateful I was able to stay out of it. It was obvious he cared for the guy. Sometimes that is not enough.

Of course, from my point of view I’m a little conflicted. I was genuinely sad for him but at the same time I was a little bit glad. I know that is a normal human emotion but it bothered me. I talked it over w/a few people and ultimately, I feel like I did right by not pushing him into this decision. Now, if things between us don’t develop into anything serious, he will have no regrets. He will have made his choices for the right reasons.

Anyway, he called and said he had a layover in SF and I jumped at the chance to see him. We spent about 16 hours together. It was nice. Yes, the sex was awesome. I know that is what you are wondering. The physical connection is very strong between us. Hell, I redlined it all the way there on my bike. hehehe. I didn’t even have my gloves off before we were going at it. Clothes flew everywhere. The rest you’ll just have to fill in on your own.

I did get a little more time to hang out with him outside the bed this time. I admire him a lot for some of the things he is struggling to overcome. The simple honesty in his statements struck very close to home for me. And while we do have similarities, we are also quite different in many ways. We have very different backgrounds but struggle to overcome some of the same demons. He is very close to his family which is almost foreign to me. I’m happy for him of course. I just can’t relate never having had that.

All in all, it was a good date. We spent the night together before he had to fly out again this morning. I probably won’t see him again for about a month. Good for a variety of reason I think. He still has a lot on his plate right now. Better he have time to deal with that w/o me distracting him.

Today was pretty lazy. I got a few chores down and now just sitting at home being lazy after a very delicious homemade dinner. How was your holiday weekend?

Ego-mania

I got a really nice mention on Why oh Why’s blog today. I’m always flattered when someone new finds my madness remotely interesting. In the scale of things, I don’t really think I’m all that popular. Many of my favorites get twice as much traffic as I do.

Anyway, I think it only fair to return the favor. Hop over and check him out.