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Journal – 07.16.07

0945: Up early. I’ve been waking up early a lot lately. Not sure why. No new habits really. Sitting on the sofa in my pj’s checking email, watching tv, and updating twitter.

1045: I’m not feeling it today. I’m not depressed but, in one of those moods where I just can’t be bothered. I think I’m gonna call off work today. Need some me time. Sitting here remembering I have to fucking laundry. Ugh!

1230: Still haven’t dragged my lazy ass to the gym yet. Thinking I’ll go late today since I’m not working. Matthew just called and wants to have lunch. Nice distraction. He spent the whole time talking about his upcoming trip South of the city to work on a porn flick. (Behind the scenes, not as an actor) [Insert Charlie Brown Teacher segment here.]

1600: Went to Walgreens to get a granny cart. One reason I hate doing laundry is I hate packing it up/down the hill I live on. This will give me one less excuse to put it off so long. I really don’t know why I have such a mental block when it comes to this shit.

1630: Finally doing the shit. Sitting at Sit & Spin surfing net, flirting by text, and goofing off. I think I need to get laid. I’ve been good all weekend, no wonder I’m so cranky.

Weekend In Review III

I’m happy to report the weekend went much better than the very stressful week. I still didn’t get the damn laundry done.1 Ugh! The bane of my domestic life.

Friday was pretty low key. I napped, played xbox, hit the gym, napped, and ate. Pretty much in that order too. Adam was in town this past week. He’d gotten his release papers from Nowhere-ville, Cali and was itchin’ for some fun. It was decided the Powerhouse would be a nice romp. Turns out it was jockstrap night or some shit. Why is it the folks naked are never the ones you wanna see naked? Kalvin looked pretty good in his though. He just needed some sunshine.2 The bar made some attempt at having “go-go dancers” if they could be called that. Naturally, the only hot one I already knew.

Anyway, I can’t say enough good things about the sexy slab of beef, Adam. We originally met at the blogger shindig a few weeks back. This weekend, we really forged a good friendship. Turns out, he is just as incorrigible as I am. My only regret is his sexy little bear boyfriend wasn’t with him.

Saturday, we had a nice work out together. We did shoulders. I must admit I was a little apprehensive. He has a very well developed upper body. I held my own though and we had a good workout. Afterwards, Calvin & JR joined us for some Sushi in the hood. I’m always thrilled when I find new sushi buddies. Adam and I then headed off to an Xbox gamer gathering. He gets a gold star for putting up with the worst party I think I’ve ever been to. I finally had enough and we bailed to go see the new Harry Potter flick. I enjoyed it much more than the last. Harry finally starts growing up a bit and taking charge vs being at the whim of whatever happens his way. Later, we were all a bit tired and ended up hanging out at Calvin & JR’s socializing. Adam and I were as well behaved3 as could be expected. heheee

This morning, the group invited me to go have Dim Sum with’em. I’m a little embarrassed to say I’d never done Dim Sum before. It was fun. We sampled practically everything on the menu. Well, except the chicken feet. I may have grown up in a trailer but even I have my limits.

That’s pretty much it. I had to head off to work after that. I won’t bore you with those details.

1 I have enough underwear to go a whole month.
2 For the record, so do I.
3 That’s my story and I’m sticking to it! *eg*

Why Am I Here?

Tonight, I had a mini epiphany. You could say proof of an insecurity I’ve grown out of.

I had a rather odd first meeting with a couple of guys from bear411. I’d chatted with this guy off and on over a few months and we’d seemed to have nice online connection. He lives down in LA. He texted me online tonight to say he was in town with a friend visiting before heading up to the river tomorrow. I didn’t really wanna go out but certainly didn’t wanna be rude so I made the effort.

Skipping for a moment, he appeared more than a few years older in person, it didn’t go well. It didn’t go bad either. It just sorta went. He was nice enough. There was just no chemistry, no sparks, nothing. Not even a real connection. I also got the distinct impression he and his friend had nothing but disdain for SF as well as a little internalized homophobia. No judgments just an observation.

The point is in the past this would have bothered me. I used to obsess about someone liking me. I used to incorrectly assume if there wasn’t some sort of spark that something must be wrong w/me. This time I had no such feelings. I just didn’t really care. They were nice, there was just no connection and that was ok. I wasn’t upset or distraught or even perturbed. I was polite, talkative, and even offered to go grab a bite to eat. I guess I really am growing up. Who knew?

8 Fraking Memes

Everyone knows I hate memes however, I was tagged by Kelly Stern with a follow up request from Large Tony. I like Large T’s version better and it is hard to resist a southern man who says please. Actually, this was a hard meme to do. If you read my private posts w/any regularity, there is very little I haven’t covered.

Eight Sexual Things You May Not Know About Me.

8. I consider my incredibly strong libido a vice. (One I can live with but a vice nonetheless)

7. I’ve gotten so good at giving oral most guys rarely last more than 10 minutes.

6. The first time I had sex w/a women, I vomited afterwards.

5. I am not very shy but after a few drinks I get very aggressive. After this weekend, that isn’t so much of a secret anymore.

4. If I’m intimidated by a guy, I will not get a boner now matter how hard I try.

3. I got out of a speeding ticket once by blowing the cop.

2. I got paid to have sex w/a guy once when I was only 19.

1. I had sex w/my step-brother, 2 step-cousins, and 4 jocks from my high school.

I never know who to tag so if you wanna do it, just post a comment or trackback here.

What?

Thanks for all the well wishes. You’d think by now some of you would have figured out I don’t do the lesbain courting rituals. You know what I’m talking about. Meet, fall in love, move-in by the 2nd date. Uh, no thanks. While I’m certainly open to possibilities, I am not on a mission to find a husband.

I can report Mr. New Guy came by after work last night for a movie. He ended up staying the night. What? Don’t raise your eyebrows at me like that. It was perfectly harmless. Yeah, harmless . . . I can also report he is a great cuddler and only mildly snores. hehehe The rest, well you can use your imagination to fill in the blanks. He got me up way earlier this morning than I’d normally care for though. We did breakfast and then I dropped him off at home. He and I are all booked up for the coming weekend so probably won’t see him again for at least a week. I figure by then he’ll be ready for another dose of yours truly.

In the meantime, I need a nap.

Uh Oh!

Here I go again. I met a guy online who just moved to SF recently. We seem to have a good connection so far and have decided to schedule a date soon. hehehe Nothing replaces an in-person connection of course but I’m looking forward to it.

I’ve been a little skiddish since the thing with M but am not letting that scare me off. Time will tell and I’ll keep ya up-to-date.

**Update** We met over lunch today. DAMN, he is just as sexy in person. He seems to feel the same way about me. (I should get it in writing before he wises up. hehehe.) So, the chemistry is definitely there. We didn’t have much time as I had to head off to work but I LIKES.