Geek Unbound

I get to yack about my favorite subject today. Gadgets!

My MDA/pocket-pc has been slowly wearing out. Lord knows, I’ve dropped it countless times. Thank god it has a newer plexy screen vs glass. T-mobile came out with the newer version of the same phone code-named Wing.

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I was already leaning toward this one as I really liked the new blue sleek design. Adam mentioned the helio which was very nice however, it would not work w/T-mobile’s network. My phone service has been almost trouble free so if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it is sorta my motto.

It is pretty much an improvement on my existing one. Newer operating system (Windows Mobile 6), faster chip speed, sleeker design, better camera (2 megapixels), blah blah blah. T-mobile notoriously has shitty cameras on their phones however, this one ain’t half bad. I snapped this pic at work and left it in its raw format.

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So far, I’m very pleased. It has almost a soft feel to it. The frame is super smooth and slides right into hand. The shape is not quite as form fitting as the MDA but I’ve already adapted. They added some extra control buttons on the face that eliminates the need to touch the screen. I hate the stylus so try to avoid it if at all possible. They moved things around a bit too. Buttons are in different places. Some a little more user friendly, a couple rather oddly placed. They also added a port replicator. A very useful little feature when you are trying to charge your phone and use the USB option at the same time. Previous models were limited to one or the other unless you were syncing it w/a PC.

T-mobile managed to get me for a 2 year contract however, I used it to my advantage. I’ve been off contract for several years now and they were itching to get me to sign up again. I haggled w/the Manager till he gave me an extra discount. Give me a month to put it thru the paces before I start bitchin’. lol

Weekend In A Blur

Boy this past weekend just blew by me. I managed to make time from being an incessant whore to do a few social things. Friday night, I had dinner w/my friend Viktor who’s father passed away recently. He has been really down and I did my best to cheer him up. I think I did an ok job. I took’em for sushi and we laughed a lot. There is no better medicine for an ailing heart than laughter in my opinion. I spent time listening. Having never been overly close to my family, I was a little envious of him though. He had such a strong bond to his father. I got a little teary listening to it. It was obvious his father loved him unconditionally. Anyhoo, it was a nice dinner.

[insert more of the afore mentioned “whoring” here]

I’ve been trying to catch up on my xbox as of late. Haven’t been playing much. I finally beat a level on Lost Planet I’ve been stuck on for months. I’m all the way to the very end now wailing away on the last big boss. He is tuff too. I can whittle him down but I keep running out of energy before I’m able to finish him off.

I took in the Bourne Ultimatum flick on Saturday with a buddy from work. I was very pleased w/the last of the trilogy. It jumps into a very fast placed plot right away. I thought the end was a tiny bit anti-climatic but over all a great movie. Definitely worth seeing on the big screen.

Saturday evening, I got a nice surprise from my pals over at Urswine Addiction. They were stuck on a layover in Oakland so decided to crash w/me over night. It was great to see them. Sadly, we didn’t take any pictures. Nothing overtly exciting as we only had the evening to hang out. We had dinner, watched a movie and just caught up on the goings-on. Two really nice guys and they make the most amazing couple. I hope I find in someone what they have w/each other. I’m still headed down to visit them and homer later this month. I’m looking forward to the trip. I’ve never been to Tuscon. The only confliction came when it was time to decide who slept on the sofa. I did. they protested but I’d never dream of splitting them up. Call me old fashioned but that just seemed rude. Besides, my couch is very comfy and I slept like a baby. (After more xbox, oh yes, I had an ulterior motive heeheee)

Today, after seeing the boys off to the airport, I had just enough time for cleanup, grub, and a quick match on the xbox. Work was work, uneventful thankfully. Sundays usually are but you never know when the shit is gonna hit the fan.

That’s it. My weekend in a blur. It was over so fast, I’m looking forward to the odd weekend coming up. I got bumped from my Friday/Saturday slot so am switching to Sunday/Monday’s off. The way it works out, I get Friday, Sunday, & Monday off this coming weekend but have to work Saturday. Bummer as it would have made for a great road trip. However, I may have a date on Sunday. Keep your fingers crossed!

Confounded

Ok, after the comments and personal emails yesterday, I guess I didn’t come across very well. Many of you were quite vocal in your desire to protect me. I’m honored and flattered. Truly, you make me smile.

My intention was not to force the flight attendant to choose between me or the other guy. It is his flip-flopping back and forth that had me riled up. He had indicated from the beginning his feelings for the other guy were luke-warm at best. So why the flip-flop then?

After going back to read the previous posts I’d written about him, I began to see why many thought the way they did. There are quite a few things I didn’t share here out of respect for him. Very private personal things that he is struggling with. It is some of these struggles that gives me the impression he is staying with the other guy for the wrong reasons vs the right ones. Of course, it is his struggle to do the right thing that makes me admire him even more. I harbor no resentment toward him. In the process, a couple of my own demons surfaced and needed to be properly exorcised as well (more on those later).

So my previous solution was not to give him an ultimatum but to hopefully, give him the impetus to make a decision. Any decision as long as he made it. If he chooses to stay with the other guy the reasons are irrelevant from my perspective. I just needed to make it clear I’m not content to be his go-to guy for the parts he wasn’t getting at home.

So, to finish the story (so to speak),he did not call last night. He has made his decision. I fully expected him not too. We spoke today and he knows I’d like to be his friend but at a distance for now (can you say sexual tension?). He knows where I am if and when things change with the other guy.

Yeah, I’m disappointed but I still feel like the good part of me won out over the insecure parts. As much as I wanted to push him into choosing me, I didn’t. I left it up to him to choose the best path for him right now. And if he does come back to me later, then it would be for the right reasons and the right time. So closes another short but dramatic chapter on my love life. hehehe

(you should be logged in to read the part where I worked out my aggressions)

Pick, Bitch

Its 4 fucking am in the morning and I can’t sleep. I just got off the phone with the flight attendant. (At least he is on East coast time currently). The title indicates basically what I told him to do.

After my last rant I had pretty much decided to go see him tomorrow tonight. I get home, go to bed and end up tossing and turning thinking about it. One, that tells me I like this guy more than I’m admitting, and two, something is bothering me. So what the fuck is it? As much as I wanna see him, it just didn’t feel right. It wasn’t that I felt guilty. I couldn’t really place what I was feeling. Finally, in an act of defiance, I decided to call him. As expected, he was having mixed feelings about us meeting again as well. He’d also apparently had a miserable night tossing and turning. (I wonder if that’s where the phrase misery loves company comes from?) Anyway, we talked and I told him how I felt and my honest opinion of what was going on. I asked him point blank if he loved the other guy. There was that distinct pause before, the “well, I care deeply about him yadda yadda yadda“. Translation, no he doesn’t love him. They’ve been going out since March. He told me the first night we met there was a distinct lack of a spark in his current thing. However, I’m not Dr Phil looking for a case to solve. Instead, I offered the best solution I could think of to the problem. I figure whatever he chooses is the best answer for both of us.

What did I ask him? I asked him to imagine a lifetime with what he feels for the other guy and then imagine a lifetime of what he felt with me. I told him not to answer but to think about it. I figure he has 12+ hours of active duty to work and mull it over in the back of his mind. If he calls me tonight, it would mean he chose me, if he doesn’t I still have my answer.

I only have our one chance meeting (and a night of very intense hot sex) and several text and phone calls back and forth to go by so I’m not really sure what I’m expecting. To be honest, I’m not sure I’d choose me if the shoe was on the other foot however, it isn’t. It boils down to this. He and I felt a very real connection the night we were together. He felt it and I felt it. If he was in love with the other guy I doubt that would have been possible. Then it finally hit me! I’m not upset because I’m feeling guilty, I’m upset because I’m not content to share. My ass was chapped knowing this other guy is out there diverting his affection from me! Talk about possessive, jeez. But there it is. That is exactly what I’m feeling.

I’m the type of person I go for what I want. A point demonstrated by how we met in the first place. I clearly want him whether I’m willing to admit it to myself or not obviously. If he does call, I plan on making sure he knows I don’t plan on sharing him with the other guy. (I think he knows it but it needs to be said) And if he doesn’t, well I always have reruns of Dr Phil.

Help!

Ok, so the flight attendant texted me today. He arrives at SFO tomorrow night for a layover.

I know after my big speech on integrity I probably shouldn’t. I want to go see him so bad. Partly, because I am so damn attracted to him and partly I don’t think he is in love with the other guy. All of our conversations of have led me to believe his dating this other guy is more about convenience than anything else. Yeah, I could be biased but I don’t think so. I’m so fraking confused right now.

What would you do? Go or not go?

Email

I am sooo behind on my email. Ugh! I’ll be catching up this week. If you sent an email and I haven’t gotten back to you, I’m working on it!

Oh Joy

The joy of having a broadband cellular card from Sprint means I can sit in the theatre (30 minutes early) for the Simpsons surfing the web!

Oh yes, I am a geek!

Integri-damn

If I wasn’t so pumped up on endorphins from my workout today, I think I might be depressed. I was all ready to post about my dance card being full lately when things took an abrupt change.

Let’s see, my play buddy scheduled for today canceled this morning. Talk about leave me high and dry. We play often so no worries, he is good for another round. I’m just so uh, “frisky” right now. hehehe

As if that wasn’t bad enough, the flight attendant called to say he was feeling a bit guilty about our growing connection. Yeah, I’m disappointed but I don’t really see it as a bad thing. I could hear the guilt in his voice. Guilt means he has feelings for the other guy. My integrity as well as my karma was tested and I did the right thing. I think I could have easily pushed him to keep seeing me. But, is that how I want to start dating someone? In a word, no. I did tell him to call if he needed to talk or if and when he decides things aren’t working out with th other guy. Sure, some might see it as giving up but I don’t. I’d never be ok w/knowing I ruined someone else budding relationship for my own.

But wait, there is more! I had the oddest date w/a guy I met on manhunt. He came on pretty strong online and wanted to meet. He is a big burley biker dude. Two full sleeve arm tattoos as well as a big chunk of his torso. Anyway, we agreed to meet yesterday and I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone more intense than myself. He was nice an all but damn was he a rollercoaster of emotions. He went on and on about his past and his ex. I got a secret chuckle out of that as I’ve been known to do the exact same thing. I think he really just wants a husband he can relate too however, I got so many conflicting signals from him I gave up trying to figure him out. He had to suddenly leave early because of a friend who “broke down” on his motorcycle. Whether that really happened or he just wanted out of the date is irrelevant. I was a little disappointed I didn’t get to roll around naked w/him though. He was a genuine hyper-masculine dude and it is rare to find one of those. He was supposed to call today. He hasn’t so I guess I have my answer. Really, I’m more perplexed than anything else. It ranks up there as the oddest date on record for me.

Ok, enough of that. I’m off to see the new Simpson’s movie. Doh!