Category: madness

Picture This

I go back and forth on pictures for the blog. I hate feeling like I have to take pics. At the same time, I enjoy seeing pics on other blogs so I make an effort to return the favor. The camera is almost always with me in my laptop bag so no real reason not too.

Today, I was having lunch with the roomie and a mutual friend of ours and decided to snap off a picture. We were laughing about the paparazzi chasing them. Personally, I think they both could use some Liz Claiborne products as they look a mess. *g*

You be the judge…

It is also my Monday. Blech. I’m at work. It rained on both of my days off but of course, it is bright and sunny today. Fraking weather. I think my inner adult is on vacation as I didn’t do anything over the weekend. Lazy, lazy, lazy. No chores, nothin’. Oh well, why do today what you can put off until tomorrow.

Random Smandom II

Today was a very lazy day. Ah the joys of being irresponsible. hehehe I slept until 9:30 crawled out of bed and had some brekkie. I originally had a hot play session scheduled but he called to cancel. Hey, at least he called! No worries, I’ll explain later.


I’m curious. Does anyone ever read bulletin boards? I was walking one day w/someone and he seemed surprised I actually stopped to read the local Bboard in the Castro. I didn’t think it was odd but maybe it is. I’ve never given it any thought but I like doing it. I almost never find anything exciting but it gives me a feel for whats going on in the city around me. Am I weird?

I had a late lunch at Firewood. The prosciutto pizza w/extra meat and an iced tea. Yum! Now, I’m being lazy at Starbucks catching up on my blogroll. I’m doing something I haven’t done in ages. I pick one of my blog links and load all of his links and browse. Today’s pick was homer. I visited each of his blog links. I even added a few to my own list. I also ran into Victor and Tony from v-hold. I snapped this cute pic of little Bruno. ain’t he cute?

And?

I haven’t gotten back to everyone lately so I’ll attempt to answer many of your questions here.

Yes, the nipple is fine. It’s still a little tender but well on its way to normal again. I’m flattered everyone is so fascinated by my nipples. hehehe. Actually, it is very flattering and I’m appreciative of the attention.

No, there haven’t been any private posts lately. I’ve been a good boy. Well, other than a few fumblings at the gym but nothing noteworthy. I may go to “church” and worship tonight though. It’s been a couple weeks. Oh! And speaking of the private posts, I found a new plug-in that may fix the comment problem. I’m loading it today. If you are logged in and the hidden posts are gone, don’t fret I’m in the middle of converting from one format to another. Your registered user info will stay the same.

I’ve been chatting/flirting with this very handsome Swedish guy. Without spilling his koolaid all over my blog, he is down in LA dealing w/some problems from the move to the States. He was in SF briefly and this is where he wants to move. However, he is stuck in LA for the time being. We’ve been chatting off/on for the last 3 weeks. Why is it all the guys I fancy are always so fraking far away? Ugh! Apparently, we chatted briefly on gaydar last summer but he says I was very aloof at the time. Not surprising, I don’t invest myself into long distance strangers. Now that he is a little closer, he has managed to worm his way past my first set of shields. We’ve gotten to know each other a bit. If and when he makes it back up here, we’ll see where it leads. I’m in no rush but the attention is very nice.

Speaking of, the M thing is still in limbo. Some days, I wonder if I’m wasting my time and others I feel like I’m just being impatient. I remember how long it took me to finally come to term w/things from my last breakup so I think most of the time its the latter. Either way, I’ve backed off and only time will tell.

**As I was writing this, he came into Starbucks, gave me a hug and said hi. Irony?**

Easter Smeaster

What did I do for Easter? I’m afraid to say, it might be sacrilige What being baby Jesus’s birthday and all. I was screaming “oh god” so I guess that makes it ok. hehehe

What did I do? I got my nipple ring resized. What? You though I was referring to something else didn’t you? Well, no worries, I did that too. Anyway, I decided to go up a size on my nipple ring. And while it may not look very big in the picture, it hurt like a mother. It is tender as hell now too. I had to break out the lube just to get it in. And even then it took quite a bit of effort. It gives new meaning to the phrase, “if it doesn’t fit, force it.”

Moving on. I don’t celebrate Easter and had forgotten till someone pointed it out to me. Where did the time go? The year just passed and already it’s April. I’m back at work later today. The shitty part is I’m working on a holiday. Even worse, it is an unpaid holiday. You would think Easter would be a paid holiday in our rather righteous country. So much for priorities.

The vacation was restful. Well, somewhat restful. After the entrance exam, I was able to relax and enjoy the down time. I must admit it was very nice just wasting a few days away w/nothing to do other than ride the bike, play xbox, or just veg.

Ooops VI

Every not do something wondering why you don’t and then discover later it was a good thing you didn’t? I’ve been so focused on work and getting my EMT hours in, I totally spaced I was on vacation this week! I’d originally planned to go to Fort Lauderdale however, I kept putting off booking the trip until it was too late. Turns out, it was a very good thing I didn’t book it. Can you say K-a-r-m-a? My entrance exam for the Fire Dept is tomorrow. I would have totally had to cancel the trip or worse, miss the exam date. Needless to say, I’m studying my butt off today.1 Wish me luck Luck LUCK!?

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My friend Trevan was in town this past weekend. He came up last week for a work conference but stayed over to hang out w/me. I hadn’t seen him in almost a year so it was very nice to see him. We didn’t do a whole lot though. Shopping one day, bar hopping the next, and a little naughtiness the last night.2 We seemed to run into the same group of friends of a friend sorta scenario. (I think they were secretly stalking us!)

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I met another local blogger at the gym the other day. He was kinda coy but I’m hoping he sends me his blog link so I can check it out. He is a total hottie too. Grrrr!

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I keep having dreams about M and I. No, not those kind. Believe it or not, I’ve been dreaming about us being old together. And no, I haven’t changed my mind about the “wait and see” approach. I also have no idea what the dreams mean. I’ve never dreamed about being old before. We texted a few times yesterday. End of update…

1 I still had my session w/the trainer.
2 No, not together. Ewww, gross!

Tech & Talk

I’ve resigned myself to the wait to see how things go w/M. I think fate is testing me. I run into him practically every other day now. The upside is I’m not stressing about it. If it happens, great. If not, I have my own life to live and can’t pussy-foot around waiting.

On the tech front, I cannot find a fix for leaving comments on the hidden posts. However, I may have found a work around. One option, I can setup mini chat boxes on these posts that are outside the WordPress loop. Another option is to try a different user management plugin. On the latter, I found a new one and emailed the owner to see if it would resolve my issues. Don’t worry, you won’t really notice much on the front end. All your log-in info will stay the same.
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News

Busy frakin’ week for sure. Yesterday, I got up bright and early to go stand in line for an hour at the Dept of Training for the Fire Dept. The city finally got its act together and posted the job announcement for EMT level 1. Thirty two slots are available and last check, they got 400 applications. A lot? Yeah. However, a lot of the applicants are guys trying to use it as an opportunity to get in as a fire fighter. I have no desire to do that. My only goal is to work as an EMT so I can fast track my paramedic training. The bad news is I’d take a $20k a year pay cut. Can you say “ouch”? The upside is m retirement would almost triple though. I’m kinda hoping I miss the first round of hires. I’ll go on the master list of available candidates. This would give me more time to prepare for such a drastic pay cut. Sometimes you have to take a step back to take two forward.

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Afterwards, I had to rush to get back in time to meet the trainer. I just made it. We’ve developed a good relationship and he is getting really good at knowing when to push me harder. I can definitely see some tighter leaner growth to my features. Of course, we’ve only been at it just over a month. I’m doing it el-natural so no overnight results. Well, I am taking protein supplements but thats about it. I need to boost my cardio though. I’ve been putting it off. If I wanna get cut at all, I need to start back at it.

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I keep getting asked how things are progressing w/M. Well, it is pretty much in limbo as before. It will be a couple more months before he is able to cut full ties w/his ex. Nothing is going to happen until then. I meant it when I said I’m not willing to pursue anything until he is completely done w/the ex. And while patience is not my best virtue, I’m even worse at being the rebound man. I ran into him today actually and we chatted briefly.

Besides, my dance card seems to be filling up on its own lately. No since sitting around pining like a school girl. I’m not sure why but guys have been crawling out of the woodwork lately. I’ve had more attention than I can keep up with. Why is that? Always one extreme or the other. lol I have a date tonight as a matter of fact. He is coming down from Sacramento. We met online and have been chatting for the past few months. He is very sweet and for some unknown reason, he likes me. I’m not sure how keen he is on me spilling the details here so I’ll keep it brief for now. This will be our first time to meet in person. Wish me luck.

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There was something else I wanted to ramble on about but I’ve forgotten. I’m sure it will come to me. I’ll post about Mr London later… *EG*

The Saga Continues…

…but in a good way.

A big thank you to all the kind words and encouragement I got from everyone. Some of the private emails and stories you shared made me tear up a little. Say what you will about blogging but I have found a true network of real, everyday guys who constantly suprise me w/their understanding, insight, and compassion.

I got an email from M today. It was just a quick hello and an apology for not getting back to me before he left. Knowing him somewhat, I’m also reading between the lines here. M is very much like me in that he doesn’t waste time or energy on unnecessary pleasantries. The email tells me one thing, I am on his mind.1 He also made a round-a-bout attempt to let me know he heard what I said and took it seriously. So basically, he has picked the ball up. What he does with it from here is still up in the air but I am a little bit gleeful today.

In other randomness, the trainer is still kicking my ass. I’ve lost about 10lbs of fat overall so far and can see a much nicer leanness in my frame. Since we just started the heavier weights this past week, I can’t report any significant muscle gains however, my muscles feel nice and tight now. Speaking of the gym, I had an encounter today that left me a little confused. I’ll tell ya more later.

On the training front, I’ve been bumped from my ride-alongs for a few weeks. My crew has paramedic intern riding w/them so I have to wait it out. No worries, I have all my required hours in already. I’m just keeping my skills up now. I must admit it is nice to actually have two whole days off though. I also found out the City is definitely on track for hiring EMT’s come June. I’m anxiously awaiting my notification by mail so I can get my name on the list.

What else? Work is work, same shit different day basically. I’ve pulled way back on a lot of the Union stuff in order to keep my sanity about me.

Ble-al, ble-al, ble-all, that’s all folks!

1 Which of course brought a smile to my face.

PMS …

…equals Pansy Man Syndrome.

Oy! The whine is all empty and the cheese is gone. I sounded like such a crybaby last night. I think I was PMS’ing. Throw in a full moon and no wonder I was pining like a little school girl. Well boys, I can report the madness has left me! lol *polgtergeits lady* “This HOUSE is clean!”

Don’t get me wrong my feelings haven’t changed, I just can’t believe I was succombing to my base emotions. What a pussy. In a nutshell, I already told M how I felt and the ball is in his court. If he picks it up and runs with it great. If not, well I’m a big boy and its time to put up or shut up.

In happy tech news, I had to buy a new laptop. The current one has been running strong for 2 1/2 years, and bless its heart, it is on its last leg. One of the hinges is busted and the other is fast coming loose from the base. I was hoping to hold out a little longer for more compatibility w/Vista but if I don’t do something soon, I’ll w/o a laptop. And that would be a crime! hehehe

Oh, there is a private post coming up today too.

Week in Review II

With all the “secret squirrel” stuff going on, I haven’t really blogged much about the mundane stuff. Well, I’m here to fix that.

I can’t remember if I mentioned it but I bought a new duvet set for the bedroom. I originally went in for just a sheet set. Of course, I can never go into that store and only make one purchase. What I did is leave with a lot of bags and an empty wallet. *g* I bought a nice microsuede duvet cover (hunter green), a hypo-allergenic comforter, some new sheets, and 3 new pillows. Oh yes, my bed is nice and comfy now.

What else? The week has been pretty bland albeit busy. Still very little time for the xbox. *long sigh* I still have weekends but I’d rather do something in real time on my days off. Speaking of busy, the trainer is kicking my butt big time. We hit the heavy weights this week so I’m really feeling it. Oy! But, for all my whining, I’m very happy with him.

I’ve decided I’m over the new blog banner. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice but the green sorta conflicts w/the rest of the blog. I’m borrowing a page from Large Tony here and opening up bids for a new one. Any graphic designers out there wanna help a brother out? I’ll take the top three and let you decide which one is the best. I’ve found a couple of new ones I like but nothing wrong w/broadening my scope. I’m sure many of you noticed the Poll thingy on the right. I may or may not keep it. Time will tell.
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