Feeling Better

Well, It’s around 8:45 and I’m feeling better. My sore throat has almost disappeared completely. Just a touch of a cough so I’m hopeful this is the worst of it. *crosses fingers*

I tried to just take it easy and goof off. Went for lunch at Before & After, it was tasty as usual. I did end up going to the movies. I don’t recommend Darkness. Totally sucked! The few scary scenes were ruined by a very unconnected plot. Nothing makes sense till the very end and by that point you are over it. It definitely wasn’t worth the $8.00. And for me to say that, it really sucks!

So, I finally managed to venture out a bit. I made it down to Castro. Of course, as soon as I got here it started raining again. Not as bad as previous days but still yucky. Not to mention, these 3 rather large queens have parked themselves directly behind me while having a non stop tirade of criticisms of the sex ads on Craigs List. Being far from a prude myself, I’m not casting stones. However, 2 hours nonstop of “oh nice cock” and “great ass” and in the same breath, “oh he is a stuck up fag” or “he thinks he is too good for us” gets annoying to say the least. I wanted to say something incredibly tacky/caddy all in one breath but then thought again of my karma and how well its been treating me. I kept my mouth shut! That said, God! I hope I was never that desperate.

*dramatic pause while thinking back thru the years of my life*

Naaaah.

Blech

I’m not feeling well today. I came home last night w/sore throat. Today, the sore throat is just a dull throb but, I’m feeling irritable and cranky so decided to stay home. No gym today either. I find that if I cut back on my exertions up front, I tend to recover a lot quicker. I hope it doesn’t get any worse. I’m fortunate in that I rarely get sick. But when I do, OY vey! And to top it off, I’m a miserable sick person. I turn into a cranky toddler who wants everything now now NOW!

Of course, going out w/a friend drinking last night didn’t help any. However, he seems to have developed a stalker of sorts and needed some advice so how could I say no? *g*

So anyway, there is this little Thai place down the block from me, Before & After. They have the best seafood noodle soup. YUMMY! Maybe afterwards I’ll take in a movie. I still haven’t seen Darkness, White Noise, or National Treasure. None of which have made box office news but that’s never the point of going to a movie. It’s times like these I’m thankful I live in such a densely populated area of the city. Everything is within blocks.

On a side note, my ex finally got a job. (Tell it on the mountains, call down the saints!) He actually starts today.

Blog Roll Update

(I’m on a roll today so bear w/me)

I finally updated my blog lists. I’ve expanded my reading quite a bit lately so felt it time to add a few folks to the list. I’ll be adding a blog link section soon. For those poor souls who found it in their heart to link to me I can only ask “What were you thinking?” *big grin* Seriously, thank you to everyone who felt like my ramblings were worth linking too, I’m grateful.

I’m also looking at folding my blog into my own domain. I listed here originally out of convenience but I have no control over the blogger code and more and more I see blogs that have been hacked. Fear not, I will update w/links and a “forward” command to reroute everyone.

Cold & Broke

Ok, its cold right now in SF. Its been a rather nasty rainy & cold all week. brrrr. While it tends to get chilly here often it rarely gets below 50. This week the temps have fluxed back and forth just above/below.

I’m also seeing the repercussions from my ‘gifts’ to the relief fund. I sent a couple hundred bucks along w/some ‘stuff’ and I may have been a bit hasty. I forgot that I’m already in a money crunch from the split and moving twice. So after doing the finances today, I get to decide who doesn’t get paid on time. I don’t regret the money as I still have a home over my head and those poor souls need it way more than I do right now. I just think I should have waited until my next paycheck. Once again, my heart runs off before my head. . .

2005

Here it is folks…2005! And my birthday is coming up fast too. I’ll be 34 years old. Wahooo! As I sit here banging away on the keyboard, I feel like a change is in the air. Maybe it’s just the smog blowing back in from the bay. I have the strongest sensation that this is gonna be a good year for me. I can’t quiet put my finger on it at the moment. Lets hope my “gut” is right cause this past year has been a rough one. OY!

Seriously though, where ever you are, take a moment to count the blessings in your life and be grateful. Not everyone is having such a great time of it right now and it should serve as a powerful reminder that your life aint that bad afterall.

Best Wishes to all my faithful bloggers. (all ten) From me to you, Have a Very Happy New Year!

Moby

On a Happier Note

So I’m sitting at Daddybucks (Starbucks) in the Castro doing my best to enjoy the new laptop. I’ve spent the last few days tweaking it and getting “stuff” transferred from the PC. I must admit I’m more than happy w/it. I just need to find a backpack big enough for it now. I bought one but it doesn’t quite do the job so I’m probably gonna send it back.

Its a muggy chilly day here in SF. Its been raining alot and a new storm is headed this way. We got some severe weather alerts at work so have been preparing for some major flooding. The ground is so saturated now if any new heavy rains hit its gonna get messy.

Hey! a a hot fucker just walked by. . .

Karma – 1 Bitterness – 0

So I did a good deed for the ex yesterday. He emailed me asking a “huge favor”, as he put it. It wasn’t that big a deal for me as it involved my techie skills. However, it ended up saving him a wad a cash. Yeah, part of me wanted to say no, just to rub it in that maybe he needed me but, what would that accomplish? So once again, I thought of my karma and how would my actions reflect on me. Laugh if you will, I still try to do at least one good deed every day. So why not do this deed for someone who needs it even if they have hurt me. I wonder if that counts as double karma? *mental note – check karma scales*

Switching topics just a little, I got a nice surprise today. I went to work for a few hours of overtime. I discovered several presents under the tree just for me. (We do secret santa every year so I expected one gift) None of them are labeled as to whom they are from. I can guess three already. I guess the point is it made me feel all warm/fuzzy inside. A feeling I normally have but a bit lacking this year. Several of “the girls” know I’ve had a hard time w/the breakup so I guess this is there way of reaching out to me. It’s times like these that my faith in humanity is renewed. It’s amazing how such a simple gift can mean so much more.

I’m not wealthy and I don’t have much to show materially for my life. I have alot more to show in experience and wisdom. (in my humble opinion) As the years pass, I’m reminded more and more often of the things that matter most to me in this life. For that I am grateful.

So just maybe, christmas this year won’t be so blue after all! And on that note, I hope everyone has a happy christmas and gets their ‘stocking’ stuffed right and proper!

No Nonsense to Report

Today was so-so. Gym, work, home. Work is ok, have a trainee again this rotation so busy w/her. Only thing worth mentioning is my troubles w/bluetooth. As you know, I have the new laptop coming which is due to arrive later this week. Well with that comes a free USB Printer. Which of course means one more wire snaking under the desk.

I decided to invest in a bluetooth dongle to help alleviate some of the freakin’ wires. If I can convert the PDA cradle and the new printer to bluetooth that does away w/4 wires. I can’t wait for everything to go bluetooth or wifi. Anway, so I get home from work and I’m setting up the PDA to sync wirelessly. . . Of course, the darn thing doesn’t do what it is supposed to do. I end up playing with it for well over an hour before I get it working correctly. When the printer arrives, I’m sure that will be a new challenge.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not bitching. I actually get a kick out of troubleshooting gadgets. I usually come away w/a much larger understanding of the inner workings. I just wish it didn’t pick the most inopportune times to happen. Now of course, none of the laundry is done. *G*

Ben Browder Joins Stargate SG1!

Yeah, I’m a scifi freak I know this. Anyway, I’m blogrolling and I discover from another rant that Ben Browder (the handsome hunk from Farscape) is joining the next season of Stargate SG-1! Of course, I clicked right over to scifi‘s website to verify if was true. Now how perfect is that I ask you? You take the best looking farm fed hunk since white bread and you add him to scifi‘s #1 series of all time. Wahooo! The season premiere is right after my birthday so I’m gonna be beside myself till then.

Ignunce Rears It’s Ugly Head

This is an old subject for me. However, it has just dawned on me, I’ve never really mentioned it on any of my rants here. I take the issue of religion and being gay to heart. I spent a large chunk of my adolescent life searching for a balance between what I thought were the teachings of the Almighty and my own conscience.

Today’s nonsense is courtesy of an interesting blog from Dunner. Dunner often offers some great insights into every day occurrences which is probably why I read his blog daily. But I digress, the topic stems from an old article posted at the LaCrosse Tribune in Wisconsin. Specifically, regarding a Ms. Peaslee’s ongoing rants about the do’s and don’ts of living a godly christian life. Or more specifically, Ms. Peaslees complete fascination with “homosexuals”. (At this point, I’d like to refer Ms. Peaslee to my good friend Betty Bowers, whom I’m told has a much more intimate connection to Jesus.)

I digress, the topic stems from an article posted by Ms. Peaslee condemning homosexuals. Now take into account, the articles are a bit old and apparently Ms. Peaslee doesn’t post many opinions these days. Anyway, after reading thru Ms. Peaslee’s ongoing rants a picture started to unfold. A picture of a lonely bitter shell of a woman, trapped by her empty and futile life, trying desperately to regain some modicum of control by lashing out at anything she fears or doesn’t understand. Ms. Peaslee’s undying conviction and righteousness is reminiscent of my own childhood. Not because I had any such convictions mind you. No, I was constantly surrounded by those claiming to be the mighty servants of the Almighty. Servants who, in reality, were tiny frail human beings desperately trying to shake their own feelings of inadequacy by attacking anyone who threatened to upset their delicate convictions. Of course, that includes gays/lesbians as well. Ya know, I’m amazed I survived childhood w/any sort of sanity left about me. I digress again, apologies. It’s really quite easy to turn the tables against such simpletons. My favorite, and most annoying choice is by using the very item that they hold most dear, the bible. When Jesus came, he told his followers, “the old law is dead to you [meaning the old testament], your new covenant is with me”. (For those of you not up on the bible. The Old Testament is where most of the supposed “condemnations” against gays are found.) Last time I checked scripture, Jesus taught love, acceptance, and tolerance of all. It always amazes me the power such a simple statement can have over the religious not-so-right. The other option tends to be a little more complex. You have to purchase or at least find an original translation of the bible. Keep in mind the bible was originally written in Aramaic, Hebrew, and Greek. Once you start reviewing these so called “gay scriptures”, you find that very few actually refer to gays/lesbians and fewer still offer any sort of condemnation or “eternal fire” for the “abominations”. To this day, it still mystifies me how such a simple truth is so well hidden from the masses. And what annoys me, is that many of the religious “powers that be” have to know what they are teaching is a fallacy.

Ok, I’ve beat this holy horse to death. I’ve off my rocker now.