Blogs A Changin’

Again!

Yeah, it’s me again. I’m on day three of my mobilization at work and coming into the home stretch. I was fortunate to get off an hour early the previous two nights. Tonight, I was not so lucky. I’m stuck here till the very end at 2300 hours. There have been some issues today but nothing Al-Queda related. Color me surprised.1 The one good thing out of all this is my next paycheck is going to be hella fat. No only do I get double time and half for working through the July 4th holiday, I got an extra 16 hours of overtime for the 12 hour shifts I’m pulling in. Money is good but I’m tired. I still have two more days of my regular shift to go. Ugh.

As for the blog, one thing I’ve sorta gotten away from is my daily journaling. You know, the not-so-exciting stuff, random driven that has no bearing on anything other than me. I often blend some of it into the blog posts however, this type of stuff is more for me than anyone else. I like being in the habit of chronicling my days. The great thing about WordPress, it is so damn flexible. Thanks to a nifty little tag, I can post just the title and not subject the user to drivel unless they so choose.

I’m tired and cranky right now. The long shifts are taking their toll on me. Other than making a much needed gym appearance, my only goal tomorrow before work is to sleep in.

1 Yeah, I’m bitter.

Random Smandom IV

I’m on day two of my lovely 12 hour shifts. I’m begrudgingly surviving. Tomorrow is supposed to be the last day. Today is a tad busier however, no major crises1 so far. The All-Star game is officially tomorrow. I’m on the medical/fire side of the room this week and it is hoppin’ today. The PD side is relatively calm overall. We had 2 shootings today which then caused a vehicle accident but that seems to be the big drama of the day so far.

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With the last post about register vs subscriber, I got a whole slew of new users. The list is well over a hundred now. If I haven’t expressed it before, let me say how truly honored I am you all enjoy my rants. I may not always be right but I always have an opinion!2

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Speaking of, the Flight attendant texted me today. He is coming to SF in a couple of weeks. You can imagine the very large smile that put on my face! hehehe

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And as a parting shot, if this doesn’t leave you in throws of laughter3 there is something wrong with you!

I think I was around 9 or 10 years old in this shot. Look how skinny I was…

1 It took me 3 attempts to figure out the plural version of “crisis”.
2 People were a little confused w/the subscriber vs log-in links so I added “register” to the latter.
3 I have more to add however, scanning and tweaking old polaroid shots takes time.

Are We There Yet?

Ugh! I’m on day one of a three day stint of working 12 hour shifts. I’m lucky in that I’m on 1100-2300 hour mobilization so I’ll still get home at my normal time. Expect numerous posts over the next few days as I’ll be bored out of my skull with all the extra down time. Ironically, with the mobilization our numbers are what they would be if our center was fully staffed.

My biggest gripe is I won’t have any gym time for next 3 days. I took off last week because I was feeling icky. Now that I’m better, I’m stuck on this stupid shift for the next 3 days. Translation? I’ll go almost two weeks w/o seeing the inside of the gym. I know I’m not fat but I can’t help feeling like a bloated heifer. lol Oh well, that just means I have to hit it hard once I go back to my normal shift. I designed two new routines for myself and I’m itching to try’em out. The first deals w/maximizing muscle kinetics as much as working the actual muscle. There have been some really interesting advancements in the study of muscle growth lately. Being someone who has always been strong for my size, I get excited anytime I can find a way to gain muscle size vs strength. Oh speaking of, Adam will be in town this weekend and we are gonna work out together. I can’t wait to see those big biceps of his in action.

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In other news, I think I’m becoming addicted to twitter.1 I’m sure I’ll get bored eventually however, it’s fun to leave a quick jab as to what I’m doing or whats got me annoyed at the moment. Btw, if you twitter and I haven’t buddied you yet, leave me a message here. It might seem mundane but I like hearing about the day to day details of peoples lives. Course, it could just be I’m nosy.

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Did I mention, I think I’m pregnant? I’ve been craving really weird foods lately. I even had a craving for candy.2 Considering I haven’t been to the gym this week, that can’t be good for my caboose. My latest craving: turkey meatballs mixed w/mac & cheese and a dill pickle as a side.

1 The little update thingy on the left that shows my random updates.
2 Besides a weakness for peanut butter cups, I rarely eat candy at all.

News You Can Use

I’m always tickled at how much my blog traffic goes up when I post adult stuff. It really is true that sex sells. hehehe. However, lately some folks have felt left out. It is not intentional. You just probably missed the original post about my intentions. I get a few reoccurring questions about the restricted side of the blog so I thought I’d take a moment to answer them here.

1) Why do you hide parts of your blog?
Expecting to have absolute control of an open medium is ridiculous however, I do not feel the need to shock my family or coworkers about the more explicit parts of my life. It is for this reason and this reason alone that I restrict certain posts.

2) I’m confused, I’m a subscriber but I can’t see anything new.
Being a subscriber means you get an email every time I update the public side of the blog. Being a registered user allows you to see the restricted parts once I upgrade your user level. If you register, you’ll get a personal email from me asking you to identify yourself if I don’t already know who you are. Nothing overtly revealing just a sort of cyber introduction. This also assures me you are not a sp@mbot looking to do harm.

3) How do I know if I’m logged in?
There are a variety of ways however, the easiest is to bookmark my log-in page. When you load the link it will take you directly to the log-in page or straight to the blog dashboard if you are already logged in. Then it is just a simple click to load the blog.

That’s it. Nothing sinister or secretive really. Just a few simple precautions. If you don’t wanna see the explicit stuff, don’t register. (Wait, who am I talking too? lol) I also got an incredibly sweet compliment from one of my new readers the other day. He said my blog was incredibly organized for so much content. I’ve seen what a hatchet job of html can look like so I do make an effort to keep it simple and easy to navigate. I still haven’t quite added everything in yet. And as many of you know, I’m always tinkering w/the layout and plug-ins so it is a work in progress. Feedback is always welcome.

As much as it pains me, duty calls and I’m off to work. The fourth of July was a nightmare of course. Everyone acts so surprised that people “gasp* were setting off fireworks. It is also amazing how many people try to justify calling 911 for a noise complaint. Sorry to disappoint you but, your desire to sleep is not a city-wide crisis. It could be disconcerting or even upsetting but it is NOT a 911 call. Ok, I’m done venting.

Why Am I Here?

Tonight, I had a mini epiphany. You could say proof of an insecurity I’ve grown out of.

I had a rather odd first meeting with a couple of guys from bear411. I’d chatted with this guy off and on over a few months and we’d seemed to have nice online connection. He lives down in LA. He texted me online tonight to say he was in town with a friend visiting before heading up to the river tomorrow. I didn’t really wanna go out but certainly didn’t wanna be rude so I made the effort.

Skipping for a moment, he appeared more than a few years older in person, it didn’t go well. It didn’t go bad either. It just sorta went. He was nice enough. There was just no chemistry, no sparks, nothing. Not even a real connection. I also got the distinct impression he and his friend had nothing but disdain for SF as well as a little internalized homophobia. No judgments just an observation.

The point is in the past this would have bothered me. I used to obsess about someone liking me. I used to incorrectly assume if there wasn’t some sort of spark that something must be wrong w/me. This time I had no such feelings. I just didn’t really care. They were nice, there was just no connection and that was ok. I wasn’t upset or distraught or even perturbed. I was polite, talkative, and even offered to go grab a bite to eat. I guess I really am growing up. Who knew?

Random Smandom III

Work is in an uproar. There is some cheesy baseball game coming up next week and because of its popularity, someone decided to mobilize our department. Mobilization means we all go to 12 hour shifts, twelve on, twelve off. Needless to say, none of us are happy. The shitty part is it all stems from our numbers being so critically low we can’t staff up to meet the demands. I’ll shut up now otherwise, I might say some things I’ll regret.

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In other news, I have a cute surprise coming soon. I picked’em up while I was back home. I think you’ll be tickled when it posts, I know I was. Speaking of posts, the private one is up, if you can’t see it you aren’t logged in. SHAME ON YOU.

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This month marks the switch to my new insurance. First thing on the agenda, look into braces. I’ve put’em off long enough. I dread getting them but it is a necessity I can’t keep putting off forever. I want nice even shiny teeth and I have good dental coverage so I need to quit procrastinating.

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Today was my first day back in the gym in a week. It felt so good but my energy tanked pretty quickly. I finished my set minus the normal heavy push. I think I might be a little worn out from being on the go so much. The batteries need time to recharge.

Life: Normal

A big thank you to all the kind words of encouragement and support regarding my dealings w/Continental AND with their handsome attendant. I didn’t even mind the walk of shame from the hotel the following morning.1

Gay High Holy day #1 has come and gone. The city has pretty much returned to normal.2 I am also home from my vacation and my week of antics. It was a busy damn week and I am glad to be back. From hosting the incorrigible brettcajun and my buds from Tuscon to flying home to see the clan, this blogger is tired. I’m slowly catching up on my blogroll as well.

Work today is almost a relief. (Almost) I didn’t really wanna come in today though. It is so nice and sunny out, I just wanted to go layout at the park. My friend Matthew dragged me out to the beach yesterday so I guess I can’t complain too much.

I posted more of the pics from the blogger summit. I still have twice as many to edit and load. I’ll get to it eventually. I’m feeling sooo unmotivated right now. Oh, and I’ll be posting a private post later this week as well. No, it is not about Steve but it is juicy. hehehe

Duty calls…

1 He had to fly out early not me. I stayed in bed after he left.
2 As normal as SF ever gets. hehehe

Bold Move

I originally typed this from the airplane. I’m just getting around to posting it.

I just gave one of the flight attendants on the plane my card. God, I’m such a brazen hussy. If you’ve been reading my trip dialogue it is needless to say, I got on the plane very grumpy. As I’m entering the cabin door, I look up to see him standing there greeting everyone. I can report his charming smile made me forget my grumpiness. Big strapping beefy hairy fucker.

It was at that moment, I prayed to the dating god that he was NOT working first class. My prayer was answered as he was working coach. Every time he passed my seat our eyes would catch and we’d exchange looks. I finally got up the nerve to smile and wink. He gave me a bigger smile back so I figured that was a good sign. I spent the next 2 1/2 hours working up the courage to stop him and give him my card. I can’t tell if he made excuses to come down the aisle or not but I’d like to think so.

Finally, I made my move. He was walking thru checking for trash and I motioned for him to stop. He leaned over and I whispered, "Would it be wrong of me to ask you to call me?". His response, "No, not at all." HOT DAMN! Of course, that made me smile bigger. I wanted to chat but knew that was all but impossible considering the circumstances. Imagine my surprise when he stopped to make a little small talk w/me later. He lives in San Diego but gets to SF often. I expressed my desire for him to call and he seemed genuinely interested. Only time will tell but here’s hoping he does.

So now as the plane approaches SF, I am in much better spirits even if I’m 2 hours behind schedule.

*Update*

We were texting each other after I got off the plane. Turns out he was laying over in SF. I invited him to come into the city with but he had an early flight. To my surprise once again, he invited me to stay over with him. Of course, I accepted. You think I’m daft? lol I can report he was just as charming out of uniform as he was in. We had a great connection and I’m hoping to see him next time he comes to town. I’m currently riding Bart home. I have the rest of the day off. It is good to be home.

Oh, and I teased him this morning that he made me a life time customer w/Continental. hehehe

Cunt-inental

Remind me to NEVER fly with Continental airlines ever again. Both flights coming/going have been late. I’m sitting in IAH waiting, waiting, and waiting for my plane to arrive. I just heard the plane finally landed an hour and half late! So much for trying to get here on TIME. It could be worse I guess. I could have missed the damn flight all together.

The wait did give me some precious down time to work on some of the pics from the weekend. I had a really good time at the GBS (gay blogger summit II) this past weekend. The pic below should give you an indication of how it went.

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Click here or on my pics link in the tidbits on the left for more. I’m only about halfway thru so you’ll have to come back for the rest.

The plane has apparently been douched and is fit for human travel again. I must be going…